Backslide. Need some help!

Found myself giving in to a binge... Ate a whole pack of oreos, a big bag of lime flavored tortilla chips and a 2 pack of Reeses PB cups. On way home the day before I ate a big bag of carmel rice cakes, believe it was because I was bored.... Ugh! Stomach is so messed up now. Yesterday didnt feel well but still gave in to eating 2 Snickers PB eggs, and 2 milni pak of m&ms, as well as a pack of little debbie chocolate cakes w white cream filling.   Because of all this only had my double Spark today and a banana and its already 1:45pm.  No real appetite either.  Will this ever end?

Regression sucks!

While visiting my elderly parent I found myself regressing and repeating old unwanted patterns of sneaking food at night. Not feeling good about these choices...as parent cant even get out to shop independently any more. Thats not right, feeling very frustrated with my poor choices...how can i do this and live w myself...i need to realize the,consewuences of these avtions dont just effect me. Ugh... Not feeling any love right now just self hatred.